JANUARY, 2022 UPDATE
by ag
January 1 marked the 10th anniversary of Pixetera, which began in 2012 as a photo/day project and continues to this day, albeit with less frequent posting. In my last update, I referred to 2020 as an awful year; unfortunately, 2021 was every bit as bad on a global scale, if not worse.
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From a creative standpoint, it’s been an eventful 12 months. I self-published my book of mashups, Compositopolis Journey, to mixed reviews—from me! Its general format consists of double page spreads that feature a pair of photographs: on the left, one of several original camera images that led, on the right, to the final composite. While pleased with the reproduction, my printer (a local company that does work for Blurb but charges its own customers half of Blurb’s prices) struggled with getting the trim right: in one proof, too much was cut off the top; in another, an equal amount was sliced off the bottom; in nearly every one, the title on the spine was off-center and/or slanted. The cover photo and text on the last—and final copy—was also misaligned. As a result, I’ve chosen not to make any copies available for sale, nor do another book. The whole experience in fact, including several work-arounds to make up for the printer’s failings, has destroyed any excitement I once had about self-publishing.
Another major project was an exhibit called “Springfield Then and Now” (STaN) that I conceived as a celebration of both Springfield’s illustrious past and present promise. The original idea was to pair large-scale photos of noteworthy historical figures with current residents who were following in their footsteps, in vacant storefront windows throughout the city. Having parted with my professional equipment ages ago, I invited a photographer friend, whom I thought was a good match for the job, to join me in the project. She in turn connected me with someone who had access to funding. STaN took about six months from start to finish and involved a ton more work than any of us anticipated but on balance I’m pleased with the way it turned out.
On the minus side, I would have preferred that we had a wider demographic mix of contemporary subjects, and multiple locations rather than a single downtown one with almost zero foot traffic. That’s where the money was though. Absent my original collaborators (I’ll spare you the unhappy details), I’m hoping to fix that in 2022 but it’s been a hard slog so far.
At the beginning of 2022, I find myself in a place that I’ve never been photographically. It comes after 40+ years doing commercial work, and a decade of serious personal expression: although I still enjoy taking pictures, I’ve become somewhat bored with the camera output, and pushed to “wring” more out of each image. That’s one reason I’ve gone down the composite path into abstraction. But even that seems to be running its course. I need to find either a wholly new approach to my photography—which may involve finally getting a real camera again to replace my iPhone—or doing something else entirely.
What would it be like to ditch my identity as an artist? Who would I be and what would I do in the new space that opens up afterwards? Intriguing questions to start the year!
I am sorry to hear about your travails and I can certainly relate. I bounce periodically (ok…rather chaotically, really) and in no particular order whatsoever amongst photography, poetry and music-making. Probably not really very good at any of them but when one venture starts to lose its allure I find myself switching to another. And maybe a completely new spin on one. Like I am currently toying with making ambient electronic music. So maybe try learning the saxophone? Or macrame? Multi-media printmaking? Tap dance? Piano? Ceramics?
Best (or beast?) of luck to you! But FWIW, I have greatly enjoyed your visual output in all its forms.
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Thanks Johnny for your good wishes. Seems like every artist runs into this at some point in their career. Challenging as it is, it’s also a great opportunity to break new ground, isn’t it?
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I could not agree more. I can’t remember where I read it, but I recall someone speaking of this as part of the process. And as hard as it can be at the time (in the throes of the doldrums), I have found it to be some small comfort to remember this—to think of it as Part of the Process rather than a departure from it. An important part too, I think. A time to let things simmer. (My Life As A Six-Burner Stove). I feel you. And I am ever eager to see what next you produce (even if it IS macramé and even if I’m not around for a while). ✌️
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I’m sorry your self-publishing venture disappointed you, Alan. Blurb is definitely expensive, but I found working with them very easy and the quality of my finished book even better than I expected. How about seeking crowd funding for a Blurb book? Congratulations on your Springfield Then and Now project! Besides being socially worthy, to viewers it’s visually rewarding. Best wishes on the 2022 version. And best wishes on your identity search. (I have to say, selfishly, that I hope you never give up photography. You’re so good.)
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Thanks so much Linda for your kind words. Not a bad idea to seek crowd funding though a publisher would be even better :)
For now, I’ll just wait to see how things play out. You can be sure that for a while at any rate, I’ll still be posting images here on a regular basis.
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I’m sorry to hear about the bad luck with the book. When I left pro photo (a very, very long time ago) I was a bit lost. It took me years but I decided that my love for photography could be channeled differently. I decided that it was an expression of my own vision and I found it very liberating. I’ve been envious of your work for years. I look at some of your work and I ask myself “Why can’t I do that?”. The answer is obvious – I don’t have your skill or vision. Best of luck, Alan.
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Very generous of you to say that Ken but I quibble with your answer. You probably could do what I do but why bother? Let’s see the world through your eyes instead. It’s been too long since you shared that.
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Couldn’t agree more, Alan–Ken! Where have you been? ;-)
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I hope you reconsider publishing at some point…those mistakes sound very frustrating but I can’t imagine that it would always be that way. I spent more than I would have liked to get a photo printed and framed last year. The printer, a local guy, did a good job and I learned from it, learned that I need to remember how much more dense print on paper is than digital screens. But the framer – ugh! Wrinkles! Just wrong. So we set aside these projects and move on to something else. I always wonder about the difficulty of moving from professional photography to making images purely for oneself. That has to be really hard. Maybe it was a good year to sink into the doldrums, after all, the whole world is doing it. Maybe it’s appropriate to the moment. And temporary, like everything.
I admire you for making a public art project happen. Whatever the drawbacks to the execution and collaboration getting it out there alone is excellent!
Great questions at the end…and thanks for putting this post together, Alan.
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Thanks for your extended comment Lynn. The printer I was using is redoing the last proof at no charge, so we’ll have to wait to see the results. I already have a few copies and may not do any more: it’s not like there’s a huge market for my books out there :)
One of the other problems I’ve found in self-publishing is that in the time it takes from concept to final printing, there are dozens of other new photos that can’t make the final cut. That’s what so nice about blogging — it’s never over!
Sorry to hear about your framing problems. For me, the cost is so prohibitive I don’t do any shows.
After a commercial career, it’s been wonderful to do my own work for a change. It will never happen but it’s fun to imagine what I’d do as a professional now given the new directions my photography has gone.
Who knows where it will go in the coming year?
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